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i am ashamed to say, i actually counted sheep last night.

i went to bed, oh, just before 12a. then woke up at 4a because i was too hot, then i was too cold, too hungry, then i was too awake; you know the drill. most of it was my being too awake, active with obsessive thoughts of worries and insecurities and realizations, as is a nightly tradition for me now. and i know i was up til at least 6a, although i don't know exactly when i fell asleep.

anyway, the sheep. so i'm laying there, and all of a sudden i realize that hey, i was almost asleep! (don't you just hate it when that happens?) so i tried to continue doing/thinking about whatever it was before i almost fell asleep. i don't remember exactly what that was, but somewhere along the line i thought to myself how it would be a good idea to try to count sheep. i mean hey, people do it all the time right? so i'm laying there, picturing this giant spinning disc with "leaping" sheep painted all around the edge. and i got to 20, but then i went "hey i was almost asleep!" again. and so i started again. don't know if that's what actually put me to sleep, but hey, i fell asleep. only a few hours lost.

god that is one of the stupidest things i have ever done, counting sheep. it just sounds so damn stupid.

all my fish are still alive! they are so happy too. i think since i have nothing to do, i shall try to take pictures of them...

just wait for it, tomorrow i'll regale you with stories of counting neon tetras to fall asleep.